Friday, May 05, 2006
The Power To Be Happy
Sop has sore eye. Pray for the both of them.
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Someone has been actively blue-tooth-ing x-rated video clips around. He even challenged his nephews to take videos of their 'escapades' with their girlfriends or mistresses.
Whatever has happened to the marriage vows men had made once upon a time in their lives?
I have been thinking. Mostly about jobs. The bank called twice. I turned down the telesales offer, and the HR called again to offer a position in the Collections department. Wanted to ask Huiyue for her opinion though. The only information I had gathered so far is to make over a hundred calls per day to get customers to pay up, liase with lawyers and agents and that I would have to work late at least 3 times a week.
Sounds like the same job scope that I had turned down the other time.
Anyway, I have been thinking about girls. Not girls per se. But the type that I could see myself spending my life with. Questions have been raised and asked, but not answered.
I started to watch news when I was eight. Not that I was particularly interested in the news itself, but I like to watch the news presenters. I thought they had the perfect job. To sit in front of the camera, looking pretty and reading off the scripts. Maybe that's the reason why I wanted to be a journalist. Heh. Anyway, I told myself that girls should have long hair, sweet, gentle and demure, yet command authority at the same time.
I have been looking for happiness. Sure, the initial stages were always happy. But after sometime, I realise they weren't 'the ones'. After all these years, I'm still asking, "What is love? And how do you even know if that person is 'the one'?"
To my limited understanding, love is beyond all the laughters. Love is more than the comforting. Love surpasses the pain, anguish, jealousy and hurt. It's more than wanting to be there for the person. But then again, don't quote me. I don't know anything about love.
I'm looking for someone to spend the next sixty years with. Want to be proud of her and be there for her. To walk beside her, to grow old with her. To carry her in times of trouble, to lift her up in times of opportunity. Someone I could be really happy with. Someone I could laugh with. Someone who would pray with me. Someone who would worship God with me.